When I asked God for wisdom, He gave me problems to solve.
When I asked God for courage, He gave me danger to overcome.
When I asked God for favors, He gave me opportunities to work hard.
When I asked God for peace, He showed me how to help others.
When I asked God for love, He gave me difficult people to care for.
God gave me nothing I wanted,
He gave me everything I needed.
Last night in yoga, our instructor read this (not in these exact words) at the beginning of the class and again at the end. I'm not in a place right now where I can deal with or talk about what's happening in my life, but I know that God is in the process of doing great things and is giving me exactly what I need. And it is not what I want, but that's the point, isn't it? I wouldn't choose to put myself through this.
God doesn't give us things just because we want them. I've learned so many times that the things I think I want for myself are never the things God wants for me (no wonder I don't trust my own decisions). But I'm reminding myself (every minute, every day) that God's plans for me are greater than anything I could imagine for myself. So if I have to go through the fire to get there, then I will trust God to bring me out the other side. I've never felt weaker in my life, but what a great opportunity for God's strength to carry me through this.
I pray for patience for you today. We aren't supposed to understand everything right now. Be still and know that He is God.